i'm banging my head on the table now.

i feel super dumb.

thinking back, i really do regret what i had done. why did i do it in the first place, i have no idea. i'm wishing that i could take it back, but i know i can't. maybe if i didn't do that in the first place, it wouldn't have hurt so much; ya know? but, what's done is done. he had nothing to lose, but i had so much more. now, i look back, i seriously do regret, and i feel extremely dumb.

ineedtoletgo,ineedacleanbreak.yousee;onlywhenyougetacleanbreak,whenyougethurt,

youheal,nomatterhowfastorslow,youheal.however,ifitisamessyaffair,somehow,orsomewhat,

youcan'tgetoverit;notcompletelyatleast.so,iguess,

ijustneedtogetfaraway;farawayfromyou.

anyways, on a lighter note,

HUGH JACKMAN IS FREAKIN HOT!!!

plus, he has an accent. a british one no less!

i tell you, he makes me weakinthekness. i tell you, seriously.

haha.

he is truly YUMMY. yummalicious. haha.

*nibble*

hmm, i just realised something.

i have real crappy cousins. haha. very dirtyy minded too. for 13 to 14 year olds, should be really innocent, yet what came out of their mouths today really surprised me. but, for my 13yearold sister, it seemed like a normal occurance. i was like wth? how do they know so much. well, lin said that she was just sexually knowledgable. wtf. haha. but, it was none the less hilarious, and it made my extremely crappy day. haha.

and, eka, you should be happy. i DID eat! alot, for that matter. haha. so, yeah. shutup, and, you have to tell me!!; [fine, SAY. haha. ((:] i don't care!! haha.

loves,

manda.